I’m going to try not to make this too long, because I could go on forever with how badly I’m being taken advantage of, but I’d REALLY like to hear anyone’s thoughts/advice on my situation. Actually, I’d LOVE any advice, because I don’t know how much longer I can sacrifice my own self-respect.
I just graduated ID school this year, and was hired into what ON PAPER is essentially my dream job. It is within the area that I’ve been focused on since day 1 of school (since 11th grade, actually), and the company I’m working for is owned by one of the most successful companies in the world (aka they have their resources backing them up). Plus I’m in the city I want to be in, and the office location is GREAT.
Thing is, since I’m a recent graduate, I’m a LOT younger than everyone else at the office. I was hired as a full-time freelancer/consultant (aka NOT an intern, and NOT a junior designer), and I’m actually the new boss’s first hire. I’ve worked in corporate design offices before, and so I thought I had a good idea of what it would be like going in. Little did I know that I would not only be treated like an intern, I’ve basically just been used for manual labor.
My boss is incredibly busy, and so his assistant is generally the guy who runs things. This guy, let’s call him A, is one of the most condescending, pretentious ________s I’ve ever encountered. He literally has started calling me by the intern’s name!!! If that’s not a clue as to how he views me/my role/capabilities, I don’t know what is. He is the most anal micromanager I’ve ever met, and I have the great misfortune to have my desk right next to his. He is CONSTANTLY over my shoulder asking, what are you doing? Why are you doing that? Who is that for?
If I’m on core or notcot, or some blog looking at design stuff he immediately gets suspicious and assumes I’m just wasting time. He’ll immediately give me some manual labor task to then get me busy and ‘useful’. He constantly has me walking over to far reaches of the office to ask someone a question when he could save everyone time and energy by just emailing or calling that person himself. He sent me out to pick something up and one of my coworkers gave me a confused look and said, “wait a second. Don’t you work full-time for us? Why isn’t he sending the intern to do this instead?” He is also always asking me if I’m helping the intern. It’s gotten to the point where the intern will actually start telling me what to do!!!
The other designers themselves are almost no better. In previous offices/studios I worked at, everything felt communal and exciting. At this place, I saw a designer looking at a blog, and the next day I asked him what it was so I could check it out. He refused to tell me, saying he didn’t “want to share it with anyone yet” because he was working off of something inspiring from it. I’m sorry, but wtf?! I smiled and walked away.
I’ve been making ‘allies’ with some of the more down-to-earth designers, and we came up with a plan for them to give me some design-related assignments, so that when A comes around, I could say sorry I’ve got to work on this. But any time I sit down to sketch, A will of course be over my shoulder, telling me that what I’m doing is NOT my first priority, and he’ll put me on some cleaning task. And what makes me really sad is that even these ‘allies’ will come to me with guilty looks on their faces, asking me to do some quick task they could just as easily do themselves but clearly just don’t want to do because it’s ‘beneath’ them.
So, after all that, here are the positives:
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I pick up a LOT of knowledge, because I WILL ask questions, even when I know the people at this place don’t appreciate my curiosity, and view it with suspicion. God forbid I should want to know more about the company/the production processes of what we do.
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I’m probably/definitely making a lot more $ than I would elsewhere. Which begs the question, if all they needed was another intern/manual laborer, WHY DIDN’T THEY JUST HIRE ONE FOR LESS.
BUT.
If I continue grinning and bearing it, I’ll be staying in what essentially is a dead-end job. This is doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for my career.
I’ve been around for exactly a month now so I’m a little bit afraid of voicing my concerns to my boss just yet. I spoke with him very briefly and I’m going to sit down with him at “60 days” to discuss the future of this freelance gig. When I interviewed with him (now that I look back on it and know now how busy he is, I cannot fathom how he took the time out of his day to speak with me for forty minutes) he spoke about wanting to have about three new full time designers in the near future, and so I assumed when I was hired that I was on some sort of trial thing. When I speak with him, how do I mention that I’m being COMPLETELY TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF, treated like CRAP, viewed with suspicion, and have barely been able to put pen to paper? He’s the kind of guy who wants people to just take their own initiative and just do whatever needs to be done, but I literally cannot even do this when I have this monster assistant of his constantly breathing down my back and telling me WHAT to do, HOW to do it, and WHEN to leave. I kid you not, he literally asks me if I’m “on my way out yet?” every day. One day, he actually waited for me to come out of the bathroom right before I left and he accompanied me in the elevator and started grilling me on what sort of work I was doing for one of the designers. I can’t even imagine what he THINKS I was doing that he should be so suspicious.
Please please please share your advice. I don’t want/mean to sound whiny and ungrateful that I have a job, but it’s so ridiculous.
(Clearly, I failed at not making this too long. Thank you for bearing with.)