i’ll post the poster that was done at the peak of my quest for reason when i get home, but maybe i should explain how it came about…
this post will be a long rambling of some unconnected thought trains, so feel free to skip.
the whole argument became clearer to me only once i had resolved it once and for all.
i guess the basic issue can be explained in an anology to music.
these past few months have been a time when i reflected on the meaning of life, why are we here? i would reccomend the book of ecclesiastes : )
so my philosophical doubt became a theological doubt, which finally was resolved in my only meaning for life is my religion- now that is my belief, and is not backed by any proof/argument.
if there is no meaning to life, that is, if there is no “perfect” life, one which has meaning/ purpose, is there good art?
so the question is, what is art? what is good art? who are we to decide what is good and what is bad? why should alignment ( i took that as a representative of Quality) be the beautiful? why should it be the “right” thing to do?
ah yes the music analogy (not a very good one, but still).
there are two organists in a church. both play music ONLY as an act of worship. the musical talent is a gift from God. (you may differ on that, but assume that both organists believe so)
SO, if God gave them the talents, and they use it to thank him, worshp him, why is one better than the other?
but wait- the music was for God, not for me. so how do i (the observer) decide who is better. what if they both are equally good?
this leads to- what is good art? which leads to - what is a suitable background to my poster?
how am i to decide what is good and what is bad?
yes, in retrospective the argument seems very silly and a little like i was trying to escape good old hard work. but at the time, it seemed VERY important.
it strikes me now that i should not be critisizing OTHER art. but my art / design is MINE to critisize… im free to decide what is good and what is bad- and i have decided that quality is good, scrappiness is bad. hard work is good, easy way out is bad. i have decided that for my design projects. my art projects are a whole ball game alltogether.
so, i shall post the last poster (july end), and then hopefully i can post my next poster, which reflects a better ethos (i feel) than the previous ones, seeking for perfection in Quality.
a good result of this whole debate that ive been worryin about is that i am more tolerant now, i dont judge other design work. perhaps their priority is not quality, that is fine by me- i just wont buy their product 
im quite happy with my conclusions. i took some photographs recently, and at last i was at peace, because i now feel that quality in composition, lighting etc IS important : )
which i wouldnt have done a month or so ago.
take care,
thanks
arpith