I cant see myself being an industrial designer in the industry where the market and money matters most.
Welcome to the boards asap.
An old book on design philosophy; Design for the Real World; by an idealistic Industrial Desiger/Author who never had to worry about food on the table, or shoes for his feet; Victor Papanek. Controversial opinions, but something you might find enlightening.
I did. He was my professor at Purdue in 1969.
“Design” is as much a life-style as it is a profession. You may find that you have to do one thing to facilitate another. i.e. working as an industrial designer of products that a lot of folks can not afford, in order to allow you to contribute gratis services on projects that mean more to you than they are able to pay.