I feel your pain on this. I am not as far a long in my career as you but it has been the same story for me. I graduated in 2008 it was very hard to find a job/internship. I found one pretty quickly after graduating but then I was looking for a another job after that end it. I found one and was employed for a couple years then more finical issues with that company and it has pretty much been that way for years now. Last year I started working on my own product. I was most of the way through it when my work decided it would change directions and put me on a contract instead of full time employment. I decided I would work as full time as I can on my own product and get it to market. I am now very close to launching my own product line. I like working for myself quite a lot and look forward to the future a lot more then I did when I worked full time for someone else. I guess the best thing I could advise is just do it what ever that it is for you.