Thanks everyone for all the encouraging personal stories! I really appreciate all the advice and support!
I am still looking but as they say “there are a thousands NOs for every YES!”
I am hoping since I already heard a few hundreds there are only a few hundreds left and then I get a big fat YES! 
In the meantime I am working on updating my portfolio.
I am also working on a personal project that I am hoping to realize. wish me luck!